I think I fell for her.

I think I fell for her the day we started talking.
July 13th 2019.
The day I stumbled upon her profile. When I realized we had so much in common. We just clicked. We talked for hours as if we had been friends for years. Everything she said was a way of comfort for me.

I think I fell for her the day we first met in person.
July 19th 2019.
Her short ginger hair with pink hues. Tan skin. Jean overalls.
We talked about everything. Our favourite musicians. Our dreams. We'd watch videos. Jesse. Tyler. Josh. Taylor Momsen.

I think I fell for her when I saw that photoshoot and read the book.
The book that talked about red haired girls. So many red heads I'd met, and her face was the first that would pop up in my mind while reading. Nihil.
She was my Nihil. Still, I'd negate it.

I think I fell for her when I'd return home from the beach and she'd be in the DMs asking how I was.
I'd eat watermelon and share memes or cute pics of Tyler and Josh.

I think I fell for her even when she cut her hair shorter and dyed it black. She looked so badass. And something inside me was dying to hug her again.

I think I fell for her when I met her in October. That coffee shop. The smile emojis on the drinks. "Chlorine" playing on the radio. I was so happy. And I didn't know why.

I think I fell for her the last time we met. February. Another coffee shop. A photoshoot. Talking about Halsey. Talking about how sunny it was despite the cold.

Now it's been 6 months without seeing her, and it hurts. It's killing me inside.
I THINK I'VE FALLEN FOR HER.